want to be blind so i couldn't see you together ;(

It hurts to actually be blamed for something you've got nothing to do with. Seems like the crybaby in me was resurrected. I killed it long time ago, when i promised myself to always be strong, reminding myself over and over again that there's not a thing in this world that happens without a reason. EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON, that, i TATTOOED on my mind.

2 years had passed and everything seems to be perfect. I am already a third year Med Student-- survived the first 2 years of MED life already. I was happy. LIFE's been good to me. I always get what i want and i believe that i deserve all of 'em. EXCEPT of course for HEART MATTERS.. eii, i am never lucky when it comes to that thing.

ahmmm.. so, straight to what i wanna blabber here. I am hurt. BADLY. i am BADLY BRUISED. my HEART's broken again for reason i could hardly fathom.

NEUROLOGY MODULE EXAM will be on Monday, September 19 of this year. This Module is just one of the hardest modules here in our college. So, knowing that fact, we were all trying our best to study--to do good, if not, better. For these past few days, I was able to concentrate and study. i got to read almost 50% of the Neuroanatomy book we were asked to read. I was happy. I was enjoying my study. The AGUSTERO TWINS-- Papa Jarred and Jinu Bibi, and Mama Sheng were there, helping me. I was proud, of course. Three consecutive overnights. It feels good. I never thought i COULD ACTUALLY STUDY THAT HARD. The feeling-- it's overwhelming.

Everything was planned this week. everything was scheduled. But then, on the supposedly FOURTH DAY of STUDYING, something happened. It's not good you know.

Imma pour my everything in here. so this is what happened that day: Monday, we don't have a class. I went to the library to renew the book i borrowed (that was after the meeting with some of the senior clerks was over). then went to papa jarred's place. I actually told them that i'm gonna stay there again for that night to study (i can't study at my boarding house cause i always end up sleeping or FB-ing). I left my book in their place, and told them i'd be back later that afternoon. I went home, turned on my CUBEE (my netbook) and went OL. It was around 330 in the afternoon. By 4, i felt sleepy so i slept.

The vibration of my phone woke me up (I had it in a silent mode, so whenever i receive messages, it'll just vibrate). Half-awake, i took my phone and read the message. The first MESSAGE was more of an ACCUSATION rather than CLARIFICATION. The SECOND ONE, well you'd easily know that the one who sent it is ANGRY. all characters were in CAPITAL LETTERS.. and all ends with -!!- I was shocked of course. I don't know what was happening. I tried to call him to ask him what happened, but he won't answer my calls. instead, he t reply goes like this: "Don't bother! I'm not in the mood!"

It sucks you know. i didn't know a thing. I tried to clarify things but poor me, naught!


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