it seems so silly of me to actually deny the truth. how many times have i cried over someone--a gazillion times i think.. yeah, i have cried hard enough i could make river from my tears. tsk~ how pathetic had i been those days when all i could do was cry. FIRST love-- that's why.. and prolly, my last one!
it's hard to ignore the feeling when the heart of a man-hater was tamed. all the standards-- the tall, dark and handsome-thingy and the pious one who will tell me what is right from wrong-- that very moment, they all become naught. how could it be?
having a guy bestfriend is just one of the most beautiful things that had happened in my life-- and also, one of the most painful. yeah, i fell in love-- so hard i could hardly believe it. in a blink of an eye, i forgot all my plans in life. the self-confessed wanna-be-single-forever baby fell in love-- and worse, to a person she promised she never will.
falling so deep, i felt being drowned in my emotion. i cannot hate him. i cannot hate love. i don't know. prolly, it's a karma for being so good and so sweet and so caring. but heck, how could karma be that bad? i loved with all my heart and soul. i was not expecting for anything good in return but respect. but what happened? nothing!
